So prom's coming up in about a month. I still have no dress, don't know how I'm getting there, and have yet to meet my date. I'm kinda nervous. I don't know when I'll have time to find a dress. I'm meeting Brian, who just called me today (yikes, I was so nervous talking to him on the phone) on Sunday at Starbucks. I don't even like coffee. I hope it's not too awkward.

Oh my goodness.
Do I really want to go through with this?

I had an 87.5 in Calc BC. We just had 2 tests, in which I got a 92 and 96 respectively. I now have an 88.8. Ugh.

I try as hard as I can, and still end up with a B. Why do I bother? I could try a lot less hard and still wind up with an 81 B. It all looks the same on the report card. No one cares that I was .65% away from getting an A.

Sometimes, I really hate math.

He has a jobbbbbb!! :D

So yesterday I took Franky to Lionville Chick-fil-a. He needed a ride up there so he didn't have to wait for 3 buses. He had to talk to the manager there about getting a job. He worked there for about a week while making the switch from Exton to Downingtown. So, from what I could overhear, it looks like he's got the job. =) He has to work nights though. Hopefully that works out. He'll need to find a ride because buses don't run that late.
But yay. I'm happy. This was much needed.

No one should have to bury their child.

Holy wow! We won our game last night! First time Downingtown West Girls Hockey Team, for the three years we've had a team, has ever won. It was fantastic!!!

Sammy and I started on defense. Neither of us had played in about 2 weeks, cause we were both sick for practise last week. So we were both kind of out of it, and on the same pairing together. In the first minute, the other team scored two goals. The second one I was skating backwards and just fell over. It was embarrassing. As soon as they blew the whistle, I thought to myself, "It's over. There's no chance. This is going to be awful." We got off the ice and just sat there, dejected. The next few minutes went well though. We were back on the ice, in the offensive zone (by their goalie). I was at the blue line, and the puck popped back to me from Marissa. I took it, and kind of avoided one girl. I was about to skate further when I heard, "Who is on her?!" coming from the other coach. I guess I panicked, I remember thinking, "Oh no, I have to get rid of this!" So I flung it towards the goal. Well, whaddaya know, it went in. It was really exciting. But then the ref didn't blow the whistle. And when he finally did, he didn't make any motions or anything, just a simple short whistle. So I thought, maybe the goalie had it covered. I was a bit disappointed. As I got back to the bench, I turned around. They were starting back at center ice. It was a goal. My coach was excited, and said, "That was your first goal ever!" I sat down on the bench, turned around and said, "That wasn't exciting like I thought it'd be."

The rest of the game was pretty exciting. We got within one, then we tied it up. We were killing our penalties. We had more shots on net than the other team. We were actually keeping it in the offensive zone for a period of time. Then, all of a sudden, with 8 minutes left, Marra scored and we were up 5-4. It was an amazing feeling. We had never been ahead before. But we still had 8 minutes left. So we called a timeout, and Coach told us to play a defensive game from now on, and showed us how to be positioned and all. We did a cheer ("For Jon!" -other coach who comes back from Kuwait today! He's been gone all season) and got back on the ice. The next few minutes were so intense! I was so scared the whole time. I could feel the adrenaline running through my body, and I felt like I was going to have a heart attack any moment. I was out of breath just watching what was happening. Then, with 1:45 left, Lindsay gets a penalty. Oh my goodness, I was so scared! But we killed it off. As the buzzer went off, we were all on the ice, skating towards our goalie. She held her arms out and we all just tackled her. I fell on top of Lindsay, and then Maura fell on me. We all just hugged each other and laughed and screamed. Our coaches came over, along with Emmy (she broke her arm and wasn't allowed to play). I hugged her real big. She was sad that she couldn't've played, but so happy to be there. It was an amazing night. We got a picture of the scoreboard to show everyone. :D It was great.

>>>sidenote. So during the game, me and this one girl were kind of going at it. I had forced her off the puck on a semi-breakaway towards the beginning of the game. After the whistle blew, she turns to me and says, "Watch your body!" I wanted to say something back, but I couldn't think of anything and the refs were watching me, so I just laughed in her face. Then later, the puck was at the boards and I was going for it. She came up behind me, and pushed me, but I was strong on my skates and she lost her balance and fell into the boards. I got the penalty for boarding! That was ridiculous. I was between her and the boards. There was no way I could have pushed her into the boards unless I had turned around, grabbed her jersey and thrown her. Absolute bull. But whatever. We killed it off. =) Then later we were both going into the boards for the puck. Somehow we fell, and she was on top of me (I didn't know it was her at this point). I was trying to get up, but she was holding me down. She got up and started to skate away, then realised the puck was still there. So she came back to try and get it (I was still on the ground at this point) and as she skated away she punched/pushed me in the back of the head. Uncalled for. So we were having some issues all game. And then at the end, when we were high-fiving, she grabs my hand and pulls me backwards and says, "Watch your body next game!" all pissed. I wanted to just get up in her face and be like "Okay first, there is no 'next game.' And second, ice hockey is a contact sport. If you can't handle it, go play field hockey." But I just ignored her, kind of acted like I didn't hear her and went to celebrate with my team, which I think made her mad anyway. What a loser.<<<

The field hockey team I coach won 9-4 yesterday. =) The other team had a goalie and we didn't. Emma scored twice, and then this girl Carly scored 7 times. I couldn't believe it. 
My team won...a bunch to zero. I think 5 or 6. I scored our first goal. =) Then Abby scored, Deanna scored twice. Not sure who else. But it was fun. And they had a goalie and we didn't, too.

Then Doug and Nancy came over to visit. I haven't seen them since I was soo little! It was a nice time. We went out to eat at Chilis but I had to leave early to go to work.

Work was...blah. It went by so slowly. The beginning was alright, cause it was busy. And Adrian was there and kept making fun of me. But then after he left and it was slow...it was just so...long! We had broken down what we could for that time...and there was just nothing to do. It was so lame.
I'm working...not so much next week but enough. Monday, closing Tuesday, and Saturday. =/ ehh.

Last night at work was so great. I got to close myself. Myself as in, with no manager there. It was me, the guy who does dishes, and the guy who doesn't speak much english. And I was in charge. :D It was so fun. And we got done in good time. And when the manager from up front checked, she was like, "This looks really good!" and I was so excited. :) Heh I know, I'm lame.

Also went ice skating yesterday. That was annoying. There were so many little kids there. SOO crowded and we couldn't really do anything. I wanted to practise my backwards skating. :(

So...just Bob and I were in the house. He was taking down the tree and I was on the computer. All of a sudden I hear a loud thud. I ran in to see what happened. Bob was down on his hands and knees, and the Christmas tree was laying on top of him. Needles were everywhere. I didn't know what to do. I was like "Can I help? What do I do? Should I .... lift the tree up or something." I was so afraid he was going to start yelling, cursing...that he was hurt. But he just started laughing. So I was like "Okay, stay there and don't move...I'll go get the camera!" So after taking pictures I helped him get the tree up and outside. He looked at it, was like "Forget the bag!" and just carried it outside. Our floor looked like we had a green carpet. There were SO many needles! It was hilarious.
Pictures soon.

Christmas Eve I worked 11-7 at Chick-fil-a. Ugh, not fun. It was so busy. So many people ordered trays, and so many people were there to get food. We had like 4-5 extra people in the kitchen, and with the machines running nonstop, it was like a thousand degrees! It was disgusting. And Francisco was really angry with people...so that was putting everyone in a bad mood. But by like 3 it slowed down a bit and people were leaving and we had all gotten lunch, so it got better after that.
I got home around 7:45, took a shower, and left for the 9pm Christmas Eve service. Our first time in the new sanctuary! It was really nice in there, and the service was great. We got back home around 11. I was so tired, but I stayed up for a while and ate and such. Then I just kind of passed out in my bed, I'm not sure what time.

The sister woke me up around 7, and my mom came in soon after to read me a Christmas story. I got up soon after that and went downstairs, where mom let us open one present before breakfast. Emma got slippers and I got an electric blanket (:D It's red). We ate and then I went in and fell asleep under my blanket, turned on of course. We opened our presents from the parents, but weren't allowed to give our ones to each other until the brothers came. They finally showed up around 12 and we got to exchange those presents. Nate and Melissa got me the 10 picture frames in a box! I wanted it so bad. 10 black picture frames that all match each other to hang up in my room. Yay! Nate liked the movies we picked out for him, which was good cause we had no idea what to get him. Finally, everyone was done. Except my present for Melissa. I saved that one for last. I made/got her a calendar with pictures of her and Nate on each month, to match with the dates they were taken and such. She opened it up and got really excited, then as she was looking through it she started to cry. She loved it so much. I'm so happy! I usually don't do well with presents when I have no idea of what they want. But it worked for that one. :)

Then we went to Nana and Poppops. We just kind of hung out all day with the cousins and each other. It was a nice time. :)

Got home around 11 and straight to bed. Got up at 9. Now comes the week of nonstop homework and Chick-fil-a. :( I have so much homework to do. Lame.

I hate this so much. I've had to deal with bad acne since I was 9(ish). I know, there are worse things, but honestly, I'm just so sick of it. I got made fun of the first day of 4th grade, in a new school, for having acne! That's traumatizing to a 9 year old. I've had it really bad ever since. I just want it to be gone! The dermatologist is no help. He keeps giving me the same stuff over and over, thinking it will work. I've been using this crap for 2 years now and ITS NOT HELPING. He wants me to use the cream twice a day. I can barely (and haven't been lately) use it once a day! Not only does it dry out my face and hurt like crazy, but it makes my face feel so gross. I can't have it on my face all day every day. And I can't put lotion over it, let alone makeup. And as much as I hate wearing makeup all the time...I look awful without it. I'm so sick of wearing so much of it though. :( I just want to have accutane, not this stupid stuff that I've had forever.
I just want to look normal.
:(

I keep having dreams about camp. Should I go back, at least one more year?

A couple days ago Nate and Melissa came over for "Thanksgiving." We ate pizza and hung out. It was sooo much fun. I love when they come to visit. There's always so much laughter and happiness.




Then yesterday, on "real" thanksgiving, we went up to my grandparents place with all of my cousins from that side. It was a blast. We ate (soo much), sang songs, watched football, played scattergories (which i won, thankyouverymuch), and then by the end we just hung out and took all sorts of crazy pictures.

I had typed up a whole bunch more...but then my computer shut down and this is what it autosaved...and I don't remember what all I had said. :(

Last night Jania, Andrea, Carly and I (our "lunch group" from last year) went to the KOP mall. We had dinner at Cheesecake factory. It was sooo good, and the cheesecake was amazing! We all felt like we were going to explode afterward. Then we went shopping at different stores, trying on random stuff. It was so much fun. Then we went home. The car ride was crazy. Andrea and Carly were sitting in the back goofing off and laughing at nothing, it was funny. We stopped at Blockbuster and picked up Mean Girls, then went back to Andrea's house to watch it. I love that movie! We took a bunch of pictures, then at 11 we walked Jania home. She had a lot of homework and stuff to do the next day so she didn't sleep over. It was so cold outside! But we ran around the street screaming and laughing, then finally went back inside. Eventually we went to bed. We had chocolate chip pancakes this morning and watched at lot of celebrity shows...that were really random. Then we went home.
I can't wait to do it again. :D

Help!
I'm liking him more and more!

Today has been a pretty good day. Jania made me an amazing t-shirt. It's red, with paint speckles all over it, and she painted 'Sarah' in cursive-ish print on the side-bottom. It's so fabulous. And then on my way to German, Sheng thrust something into my hands. It's another "birthday book." He makes one for me every year. It's a comic type birthday card about a field hockey player who gets her cake stolen. It's soo funny! He's made one for me every year. I love that kidd. :)
At home I didn't really get anything I specifically wanted...but I got some nice stuff. I got a pretty ring with hearts on it, and a scrapbook sheet display thing...I don't even know how to describe it. And my sister got me a picture frame that says "Sisters" all around it. I love it. :)

Soon I'm leaving for my hockey game. Hopefully all goes well there too.

This morning was amazing. We did some team bonding with field hockey. Since Morrow wasn't there, I jogged with everyone and got to do a shooting game at the beginning! Then we played team games. At first we sat in a circle, and said something we liked/something good about the person sitting to our left. Annie had me. She said, "I think Sarah's great, cause she's a trooper. Even though she broke her leg she still comes to every single practise, and I think that's great." It made my eyes water a bit. I thought it was really sweet that she thought that. It also made me realize the important part of all of this. It doesn't matter if I'm "recognized" as a member of this team. I'm hanging out with the girls I've grown up with and we're having a blast spending time together, and they consider me part of the team and that's what really matters. Then we played a game where we were in partners, and one person was blindfolded and the other had to verbally lead them across the gym to find their stick. We played twice so that each partner would have a turn. Janelle and I won both times. The same people got 1, 2, and 3 place both times in the same order. Then we played a game where we had a stack of notecards with a word or two on each one. We had to put the quote in order. Our team won. :) It was a really fun game.

We played our first game in the States round today. We fought hard, but lost 3-1. So our run is over. This was supposed to be the year, but we ended it today. But we've come so far, and I'm so proud of all my girls. :) It was really sad to know that we will never again play field hockey for downingtown west, but I'm also really happy that it's over, so I don't have to deal with the coach anymore. When we got home Deanna and I were laying in the back of my car talking (station wagon back). Julie Hodge and Emma saw us and came over to "join the party" and we just sat there and talked for the longest time. It was really nice. I'm gonna miss all these girls so much.

Taylor Swift keeps running through my head. The part where she says, "It's hard not to find it all a little bittersweet"

I'm going to cry. I was just at field hockey practice, and we had a team dinner afterword. Mr. and Mrs. Barnett (Kasey's parents. I've known her since 4th grade) made everyone these headband (like earmuffs) things that say Chesmont Champions 2008. They embroidered it onto them. They're so amazingly gorgeous, and it was such a sweet thing of them to do! They attached cards to each one about how far we've come and how proud of us they are. It was so sweet I almost cried reading it. Then Mrs. Barnett came over and hugged me and Deanna, and said how she wanted to make them for all "her girls." Then she added how she didn't make them for the coaches and laughed.

I can't believe how sweet they were with this. I love them!

Practise was lots of fun and ended in a massive tape war that ended in fits of giggles. I love my hockey team.♥

I love being back to work! It's fantastic. I really do love it.
And it was so much fun to hang out with Francisco today. He always wants me to smile, and gets mad when I'm frowning (which I just automatically do when I'm concentrating). He kept coming up to me and saying, "Baby, are you ok?" Then later...he found my ticklish spot. He wasn't supposed to know that. The girls in the kitchen have one advantage over the boys: not being ticklish. Ugh, now he knows where I am ticklish. This should be interesting. Then we both got off at the same time, and we stood in the back and talked for a while. He said he was sad cause he had this certain "friend" who didn't want to talk to him on the phone, only text him, and sometimes he just wants to hear their voice. I had to explain to him how I hate talking on the phone to begin with, I have a processing disorder which messes up phone convos anyway, and it can get hard to understand him when I can read his lips while he's talking, all without hurting his feelings. Then he told me I have beautiful eyes and left.
It was a nice first day back.